As Time Goes By....

My mother in law has been in heaven since October 2005. My Dad joined her in November 2009. I miss them both so much. I feel lost without them, I really do. I am now in the stage of going through the firsts for the first year of my Dad being gone. It's tough. His birthday was April 26th and I fondly recalled the many happy memories. Some memories are recent and not very good....seeing him unhealthy, sad and in pain. That is not how I wish to remember him but that is how I last saw him. Comparing the two deaths of my mother in law & my Dad, what I recall was that both of them expressed a desire to live. Neither wanted to die. I always wish I had spent more time with them. Today, I know that every moment of every day they are both with me, guiding me, helping me and continue to love me spiritually. It doesn't make the hurt go away, but it certainly brings me a level of peace. I love you Daddy. I miss you horribly.